Forgive me
For not having understood
That mom’s pain was never meant to be mine
That there was no reason for me to receive her suffering
And there was none for you to get mine
Forgive me
For carrying on all her doubts
For storing her trouble in me for so long
For letting it grow until it bursted out of my pores
For allowing it to spill over into you
Forgive me
For not saving you from that pain
For letting it sneak into your lungs and your hearts
I never wanted to give you the hurt that I felt
Nor the fear nor the anger or wants
I tell you this ’cause she came recently down
To reassure me that our mother is fine
That her suffering wasn’t a timeless curse
That she lifted her karma
Gave it back, not to us
But to Mother Earth to digest and transform
Then she gave us the power
To reconsider our pain
To review the worth of our sadness and fears
She told us to please wash it down with rain
So that her love and her joy do remain